Launching Maisy: A Year of Trauma, Turbulence and Tears…Lots and Lots of Tears

Maisy's Bangs Then

I have cried at least once every single day since December 15, 2017. Some tears were stinging hot ones that threatened but never actually fell. Some were accompanied by uncontrollable, choking-body-shaking-make-up-smearing-can't-even-breathe sobs. For those of you keeping count, that is 239 days of tears. I am certain this is the most I have cried in any one year in all my 47 years on this earth. Why? Why so much crying? In three short weeks, we will make the 6 hour drive up to Providence, Rhode Island where we will leave our first-born child, Maisy, at Brown University. December … [Read more...]

I know…it has been a long time.

Our Fish

Believe me, I have missed you all too. I have missed the cathartic, cleansed feeling I get just after I hit "publish." I have missed sharing the laughs and tears and virtual "Yeah, Girl! You GO!!'s" from you. I have even missed the hard, honest, sometimes mean-spirited, irreverent comments. So, where have I been these last 18 months? Physically, in the exact same spaces as ever: my home in Chester County, PA, more often my office down the road, and probably MOST often, wandering the aisles of Bed, Bath and Beyond marveling at ALL of the home goods and gadgets that I KNOW will make … [Read more...]

A Shout-Out to All The Cooks This Holiday Season

I'm thankful for the recent accolades "The Longest Mile" has received, including 2016 USA Best Book Awards Finalist for Social Change.

Happy Thanksgiving weekend and a happy start to the most wonderful time of the year! For holiday chefs, the pressure to make the perfect turkey, turducken, Christmas ham, apple pie, or whatever it is you may be cooking this season, can be daunting. I’m reminded of how I felt back in 2013 leading up to the first Team CMMD Food Fight. The very same meticulous planning and maximum efficiency that rendered the evening a massive success for Team CMMD is also a necessity for many of you for your holidays. However, I sincerely hope you and your family are not tasked with serving 520 plates of food … [Read more...]

My Worth As a Mother: In Two Braids

Children

I have doubted my quality as a mother at least daily for the past 16 years, 4 months, and 29 days. The baby years were hard with the diapers and breast feeding and pumping and up all hours of the night. Then came the toddler years. I broke into cold sweats perseverating over the grape I didn't cut into fourths or the outlet I left uncovered because frankly, I was too tired to get up and find another one of those nail-breaking plastic things. These doubts churn to the surface every September, with the return of yellow school buses, brown bag lunches and math quizzes. It’s back to school in … [Read more...]

Enjoying the Ride: That Time I Published a Book

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Wow. What. a. spring! It feels like it’s been forever since I’ve sat down to write. [interlaces fingers, cracks knuckles, and rubs hands together as if to start a fire] I mean, to scratch the itch, sure, I write my daily revelations in mini-form on Facebook. Just the other day I went there… To grieve a loss. Not of a patient, but of her lingering memory. We lost her too young several years ago, and today I found out her husband got remarried. It was an unexpected body-blow… the strangest of feelings… being happy and blessed that he could go on, and at the same time, wanting desperately to … [Read more...]