Launching Maisy: A Year of Trauma, Turbulence and Tears…Lots and Lots of Tears

Maisy's Bangs Then

I have cried at least once every single day since December 15, 2017. Some tears were stinging hot ones that threatened but never actually fell. Some were accompanied by uncontrollable, choking-body-shaking-make-up-smearing-can't-even-breathe sobs. For those of you keeping count, that is 239 days of tears. I am certain this is the most I have cried in any one year in all my 47 years on this earth. Why? Why so much crying? In three short weeks, we will make the 6 hour drive up to Providence, Rhode Island where we will leave our first-born child, Maisy, at Brown University. December … [Read more...]

I know…it has been a long time.

Our Fish

Believe me, I have missed you all too. I have missed the cathartic, cleansed feeling I get just after I hit "publish." I have missed sharing the laughs and tears and virtual "Yeah, Girl! You GO!!'s" from you. I have even missed the hard, honest, sometimes mean-spirited, irreverent comments. So, where have I been these last 18 months? Physically, in the exact same spaces as ever: my home in Chester County, PA, more often my office down the road, and probably MOST often, wandering the aisles of Bed, Bath and Beyond marveling at ALL of the home goods and gadgets that I KNOW will make … [Read more...]

Fall vs Fail: The Difference Is in the “I”

"Knee, meet this brick."

I have never really been accident prone. Childhood circa 1970's-1980's: no broken bones and only one serious laceration (forget the stitches, this one was life-threatening.) Then this year happened. In the last few months I have had three falls, two of them MAJOR. The first happened while I was running with my beloved running team at 5 am. I was going faster than my normal pace and it was dark. Running fast in the dark was outside my comfort zone. My toe caught an uneven brick and down I went...hard..on said brick. My left knee burst open like a watermelon thrown from a rooftop. … [Read more...]

The Day I Almost Died

When I was fourteen, I sat in the back of a school bus frantically trying to hide the fact that I was wearing the same cotton pantsuit for the third time that week. I felt as though everyone on that bus was laughing at me. I know now that they weren't but my perspective was a hot mess. I felt like an outsider, a failure, a giant loser. I was not pretty or funny. I was not talented in any way. I was "just" smart. I didn't want to be smart. I wanted to be pretty. I wanted to be funny. I wanted to play varsity anything. I wanted to have a different outfit for every day of the week. That day … [Read more...]

Don’t Throw Your Playlist Out With the Song: A Message for Life

My SLOWEST, yet Best Run in a Long Time.

I just got back from running four miles and I feel great. Don't roll your eyes. This is not another one of those annoying "look-how-awesome-I-am-because-I-run" posts. In fact, I had the absolute WORST run in recent memory. I was hot, hurting and so very painfully SLOW.a> So, how is it that I feel ON TOP OF THE WORLD right now? I made an important discovery in that agonizing four miles today and it has to do with my running songs. To really understand, I have to give you a back story. Two and a half years ago, my aunt was diagnosed with Stage III B Colon Cancer and was fighting for … [Read more...]